Positive Polly.

I have to be at work to work an 11 hour day in about 6 hours. Why, it's the perfect time to write a blog.

I wanted to use this blog to talk about things I've learned over my past year of mental stability. The most important thing I've learned is how to keep a positive attitude.

I have always been a negative Nancy. A woah is me why did I get dealt the craptacular hand in life. Why wasn't I blessed with buckets of money and why do I have an eating disorder that makes the size of a house? I spent many a night wallowing in the depths of my own self pity and it got me nowhere.

What changed? I can't blame a change in my entire way of thinking on a pill. That gives it too much credit. Truth be told I had a terrible year stemming from around June 2012-September 2013. I made a series of bad decisions, had things fall completely apart, and saw my life spiraling out of control.

So one day, as the result of my life evaluation was stamped with a big ol SUCKS, I decided that I was going to look for something positive out of my day to try and replace one negative thing out of my day. Like if I hurt my foot getting out of bed, I would look for something positive like, I went to work on time. Gradually it's turned out that I have a really positive outlook on life today. I look for the good in everything.

Now, I'm not naive. I don't let myself be walked over. But, honestly, I don't see a real reason to defend myself. I'm not on the defense.

I'm not perfect. It's not all whiskers and kittens. But I find that I am happier, and my days are brighter. I cannot remember the last time I got angry, and we're speaking about someone who got mad daily.

Think positive, people. It really works.

N