Okay. First. If you're reading my blogs and wondering about the titles. I have always had titles that didn't correlate to my blogs. It's just a thing I do. Pretty soon I'll start going down the alphabet with random words.
I suppose I should blog about my life, my thoughts, my forward progression, etc etc.
It would be safe to say that I live a relatively simple life. I go to work, and if I'm not at work, I'm at home either sitting in my spot on the couch or I'm asleep. I've always been a homebody so it doesn't matter. I would like to say that me buying a car would give me some great aspect of a social life, but the reality of the situation is I'll either be broke and since I'm driving a gas hog, I'll be trying to conserve gas.
Overall I'm feeling good. I'm generally happy and upbeat most of my days. I feel really emotionally strong. Yesterday marked a year of me being back on my medication and I can really see it working for me. I'm really happy with the results and going back on it was the best decision I could of made.
Work is a crap shoot. The job frustrates and exhausts me. I always feel like there is something else I don't know and I will never learn enough. It bothers me because I am such a fast learner and I pride myself on picking up things really quickly but this is SO much new rushing at me I'm overwhelmed. Plus, I'm not a sales person, never have been. Though I'm highly manipulative, I'm not persuasive. I don't have the confidence in my job to go balls out and see what I can get and my inherent fear of rejection hinders my ability to make a sale. I take each call personally, as if they're mad at me and not the company.
I will say though, committing to buying a car has done wonders to my attendance. I was prone to taking an extra day off or coming in late, but I now realize I need every single penny I can get out of that job. I'm considering pulling some overtime once I get my car.
My living situation is still good. I love the nights that Brittany and I have the evenings to ourselves and we just sit and watch old TV, listen to music and chat about life.
I am having hygiene problems again and everyone is starting to take notice. It's really embarrassing to admit it, but sometimes I can't get myself as clean as I should be. It's a clear sign I need to lose weight. Probably one of the clearest signs I've gotten in awhile.
My Mom and I are doing okay. The Christmas visit didn't go as happily ever after as we had hoped, mainly because I got sick and she's unsympathetic. But, none the less being up there reminded me of the constant chaos that I used to live in, and how much more at peace I am here. My mother and I work well from a distance, and it's really all that needs to happen. She's going through a lot of stressful situations right now and I'm just happy that I'm down here and not there.
I suppose I should get in the shower and prepare for work. It's going to be a long day.
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I have the same problem with over-innundation of new and changing information at work. It really helps me to keep a legal pad of information that I've jotted down from meetings or policy emails. I date the page and write down what was said and who said it. That way I know who to check back with to see if anything has changed or if I'm doing something right.
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