It's nearly 3 AM. My roommates are happily snoring and I'm wide awake with a clusterfuck of thoughts and finally the willingness to write them down.
When I started this blog in April, I was living in Ohio, working at a gas station, going to school. Fast forward 5 months. I've dropped out of school, moved back to West Virginia and am desperately seeking work. So what changed? What happened? Well the answer is simple, my mother poured out my Mountain Dew.
It seems so fickle that something so simple could provoke something so large, but it was the final step on the spiral staircase of problems I had been having over the summer.
Item A-I quit my job in April and despite 3 interviews I was unable to get another job. That caused severe financial strain on my family.
Item B-I transferred schools for cost reasons, and wound up hating the new school. Additionally I was going to have to add at least an extra year of schooling due to my program having a specific start date. The whole thing made me miserably unhappy. I felt that school was the only thing in my life for a long time that I had going for me.
Item C-My mother and I were growing increasingly unhappy with each other. There was never peace. Things were starting to get violent.
So during one fight, she decides to pour out my Mountain Dew. I decided that I was no longer happy with where I was and I needed to get out. I made a few calls and got everything together and I decided to move back to West Virginia. My mother stood by this decision, convincing me to stay with my opinion and not change my mind and go.
It sounds stupid, and maybe it is, but I felt that I needed the change for my sanity, and to salvage the relationship with my mother.
So here I am. Back in the mountains. Living with 3 other people and a cat that's not mine. Starting a new journey.
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